Serious Case of the Finals Stress Eating
Ah, classes over, break only a hop, skip, and a jump away. The only thing standing in the way of you and your vacation are finals.
I’m truly blessed in the sense that I’ve yet to have a truly impossible experience with finals. For me it’s pretty much the same amount of work I have to deal with during the year, except now I don’t have to worry about going to class or anything. It means I get to sit around in the library, my common room, or in my bed doing work while also watching episodes of Veronica Mars.
The one thing, though, is that you truly realize how much time you spend, well, not moving. And stress eating. The thing is, I normally have had been really careful about what I eat, but with finals it’s like excuse city. I have no restraint. We have a cafe in our library, and if I want a damn mocha latte, I want my damn latte. If I want that chocolate cookie, I want that chocolate cookie. Right now as I’m typing this I’m planning my raspberry cappucino. It’s going to be amazing.
And going to the gym has been so awful because I live so far away from it and it’s freezing outside. Before you judge, I did go yesterday. I walked uphill on the treadmill for about 45 minutes and then did my abs. It’s not ideal, but it was something. I also make sure I take the stairs any time I can (yay living on the top floor.)
I guess I just have to start snacking on the right foods. Instead of ranch munchies, I’ll bring my roasted almonds or triscuits with me. But it’s not going to be as enjoyable.
Back to School, Back to Bad Habits?
I’m already terrified that my bad school eating habits will come back in full force. Drinking begun last night, my stress from shifting gears is taking effect, there’s a wide array of nasty good food more readily available.
I’m already stressed about whether or not I’m going to be able to join a sorority, I’m stressed about the idea of doing it while at the same time stressed about the idea of not doing it. I’m stressed about Italian, which I can’t remember how to speak. I’m stressed about other classes that I know are going to be incredibly tough. I’m stressed about picking up books that weren’t available in the bookstore and now it’s really inconvenient for me to get them.
I already miss my workout plan at home that kept me sane. I was really excited about coming back, but now I miss picking and choosing when I was around tons of people instead of living with them all in one small location.
I think I just hate changes like these. Once I settle in it’ll be fine, but right now I’m just sitting here, unable to go back to sleep, stressing and trying not to run to food to comfort me.
Am I Secretly Sabotaging Myself?
I think I might actually be scared to meet my weight goals. I’ve always been this way in multiple areas of my life. I like having goals to work towards and things to fight for. I can’t tell you how many video games I start only to get to the final boss and never pick the game up again.
So maybe I’m scared that if I ever do achieve a body I’m totally happy with, all I’ll have left to do is maintain it—suddenly I’ll have something to lose instead of gain. I know it’s an odd way to look at it, but it’s exciting watching my body change in front of me, so what happens when I’m where I want to be?
It’s the same for me and love. I’m scared that once I find it, I’ll just be bored because I don’t have that to look forward to anymore and suddenly I’ll just have something to lose instead of gain (I mean I could gain the weight back, but I mean to gain in a good way!)
I just hope that subconsciously I’m not losing my willpower because I’m scared of getting what I want (and then it doesn’t even make a difference.)
keepitfreshlikeziplock-deactiva asked: you are so serious about this. i'm happy ur so full throttle about it. don't loose too much though!!! because of your tumblr, i just wrote like an essay about weight and shit for a post on mine haha. i can't wait to be all healthy in our room... at least i'll attempt. <3
I love you! We’re going to be amazing this year, especially since the caf has all the new healthy options! But we can be bad sometimes (aka chinese food when we’re too lazy to leave the house hahaha.)
Attempting to get my Mom on Board
My mom is always on my ass about being in shape because my height can’t handle like any weight without looking off. But you know what? She’s like an inch or two taller than me, and she’s always making excuses not to work out but has no problem telling me? Uh uh, momma, you don’t get off so easily.
So I’ve been slowly getting my mother to work out with me when I use Comcast on Demand’s Exercise TV, which is the best thing on demand ever ever ever (besides when they had the first 2 seasons of True Blood on there.) I use them for all my strength training videos and sometimes cardio. There’s one program in particular that I’m having my mom do with me because it’s a great way to get an awesome cardio workout without killing yourself (oh, but believe me, you still sweat.)
Question with 1 note
heartbreakbreakinghearts-deacti asked: ps this is awesome ariel. you should know you're beautiful no matter what you weigh, i can't tell you that enough.
Awww thank you! I just want to feel the healthiest and best I can possibly feel and getting into the best shape of my life will be amazing!
heartbreakbreakinghearts-deacti asked: iloveyouiloveyouiloveyou.
I love you too!
tumblrbot asked: WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE INANIMATE OBJECT?
My zune. Without it, I could never work out the way I do <3
Whaaaa?
The little boy in that picture pretty much sums up this post…I’m so baffled by what I am about to tell you. In fact, just by telling you this, tumblr, I am probably jinxing myself.
Frustration Ahoy
Yesterday was one of those frustrating days where I just knew things were going to end badly no matter how hard I tried. One of my close friends’ was having a surprise birthday party at P.F. Chang’s, and I knew my willpower would be severely tested.
Page 1 of 2
